Uh-oh !

See how indecisive I am.

Impromptu 8.27 is a confirmed item for Sunday's concert.

Now, it turns out that the poll has led me into a tight situation.

Perform something by Richard Clayderman instead ?

Well, who knows.

Darn, I've gone so indecisive that I have to put a space between every single sentence.

I wanted Farmer.

Here's a thought : since I'm thinking of recording a few vids of performances (notably mine, Louisa's and Shing Yi's), I'll have to charge the phone overnight. Also, I'll have to get someone to hold the camera in place while I'm playing. If, say, I'm not involved in the group item, I can record it on video. Or else, I might have to get help from one of the members of the floor. Hope I get a really good catch !

I've set up another quick poll in the sidebar

This time, there're even more options (not only does this show my democratic nature, it also shows my indecisive nature). Ms Susan's concert is next Sunday, in the afternoon, and I can't be waiting till the weekend ! The sooner I get responses the better.

The current options I've taken for the poll are as follows :

Mylène Farmer – Rêver

Rihanna - Unfaithful

Zazie - J'envoie valser

Evanescence - Good Enough

Evanescence - My Immortal

The Beatles - Blackbird (but perhaps, I’ll be taking the rendition by Carly Smithson of American Idol fame.)

Watch/listen to every single one (particularly the titles that you aren’t familiar with), and vote at the sidebar. Which one has the most power to move people’s hearts ? Keep in mind that for all my versions of each song, I'll be omitting the percussions, I'll be singing alone - perhaps - and I generally prefer slower songs because everyone can relish in the music (and perhaps, the lyrics).

Hurry, you only have three days to do so, for the poll closes on Tuesday !

troisnyx*'s answer to naysayers

Well. Today was just like Wednesday. Only minus the worry of waiting for jury response. In the morning I had Ms Sunbeam's class, and in the afternoon I had Ms Barclay's class.

In the afternoon before Ms Barclay's class some naysayers approached me and told me I shouldn't be worrying over trivial things. Like what would've been the prom night performance. The reason being "we're not gonna get paid for the performances anyway."

It all started when I posted on troisnyx* officiel that I was out of the list. For starters, all readers - and the people whom I hold near and dear to me - all of them were expecting a recording of sorts. I broke their expectations, and I broke mine. Also, I found it meet to remind people of the kind of rejection I faced all these years whenever it came to me wanting to stage a performance. I was ever wont to face this kind of cancellation during my school years ; I especially didn't want it to happen now but it did.

And in doing that blog post, I wasn't injuring or slandering anyone. But I know full well that the naysayers who approached me did their deal of slandering me.

I'm especially worried - and dejected - about not being accepted, not because of the payment or anything. I know full well that it's a prom night performance. It's just the satisfaction of being up on stage and sharing my gift of music with the people around me. In this case, college students. In case you didn't read the previous post fully, I did mention that for the most part I had sleepless nights - I was in the midst of finalising a song which I composed - and more often than not I stayed up until 3:00 in the morning just to add in my touches. Imagine what a heartbreak it is when suddenly after you finish your own song, the next morning, the organisers call you and say your name's been scrapped off their list !

Put yourselves in my shoes, know that I'm not very much of the outspoken type unless it concerns studies or blogging.

Put yourselves in my shoes and know how I can compose.

Now, only a few people actually bothered to listen to the song I made, in full, and most of them were YouthSays friends and friends outside college - most people didn't bother to listen, and I know, because many people don't think the way I do, they won't understand what it means to me if I do perform "Kasih" in front of the college crowd. This was my first song with lyrics ever created ; I wanted a chance to share it. The college crowd never gave me a chance, and don't expect me to open up any chances for the college crowd ever again. Because if God willing, things go well, I'm gonna play hard to get : if the organisers do catch me again and tell me, because I record, they want me, I'm just gonna shake the dust from my sandals and tell them to do without me.

Now, if you're one of those naysayers who happen to read this post, troisnyx* tells you very solemnly : I had no hostility in putting up that post. And, go ahead and keep on underestimating me. Go ahead and keep on saying that my desire to sing and share my songs with others is a trivial matter. Go ahead and criticise me for putting up college posts. There'll come a time where you won't just be asking for your pictures to be put up on troisnyx* officiel, you'll even want to be given good reviews. And if you've denied this in the past, don't expect me to give it to you ever again.

troisnyx* has spoken.

No, wait.

I'm thinking of Brian Adams' "Heaven."
Which one will it be ?

Faith Hill. Brian Adams. Faith Hill. Brian Adams. Faith Hill. Brian Adams.

You know what, I think I'll just bring both along.

Thing about "Heaven" is this - it's simpler than "There You'll Be" in the sense that for "Heaven" I can retain a falsetto voice throughout the song - it's slightly effortless compared to "There You'll Be" - I remember for that Faith Hill song the verses were fine. The chorus was an uphill task. Immediately I told Adoravelle, half laughing, half sweating, "If the chorus is this bad, what'll happen to the bridge ? Isn't there a long E flat somewhere ?" And she was like, "oh my gosh, yes."

I got worried. Then suddenly when Kimberly was there, she and Adoravelle were singing "Heaven" and I was thinking, oh snap, another song ? Never mind. I guess she'll be dragging Leithiga and Kimberly along for this. I need to practice on the keys. It's a bit too late, I know. But I'll try. Soft and sustenuto pedals down together, please.

Darn, I'm flustered. Tomorrow - um, I mean, later today - there's a Literature paper before my leg of the auditions - darn Mill - and two essays within two hours, and I wonder what's gonna be my saving grace. Unlike Law and Business Studies, there were no mock examinations for Literature. Everyone's scared. I'm a little scared, no doubt. I just hope I can make it through. Help me, Lord. And mom, please watch over me. And my friends. It's from up there that you get to know them.

Oh snap.

I almost forgot.
Today was the final audition. And I couldn't come to college.

Dang, I have - I have I have I have to train myself for Faith Hill.

I remember the last time I trained with Adoravelle - and I was entering into falsetto voice so many times. Dang. To stomach the entire vocal thing wasn't at all bad, I guess. It was only the highs. I remember Kimberly and Faith were there - and Faith was recording half our training on her phone - and there were people coming in and out of the hallway actually trying to figure out who was singing. Na, Adoravelle and I both trained. I don't know whose voice quality hers resembles, but hers is good. Real good.

I'd better hurry and get some tickets, pronto. And, secure my place in the performances.
Faith Hill it is, and I guess I've got no turning back--------