Calling Soleil

This is the second time I was harassed in college.

Two people harassed me after Literature class. Now, I'm not going to mention the names of the perpetrators, but Ms Sunbeam knows the entire story. It all started when Ms Sunbeam ticked off those two girls for their erratic attendance. Now, all I told her was that I didn't see one, and the last I saw the other was in the computer lab. That was all. It had an added effect today when Ms Sunbeam said "I pity this girl's grandmother - she figures her jewel is in college, doing her work well, attending every single class when in actual fact, she has to think before entering. And more often than not, she does not make it inside."

So everything was plain sailing until the first perpetrator came out, confronted me at the stairs on the fourth floor and asked me in a loud voice (I reckon that she must have been pissed !) - whether I was the one spreading rumours about her. I was not. In my anger, and confusion, I'd say, I told her that we were talking about another girl (which turned out to be the second perpetrator later) whose attendance was erratic. Ms Sunbeam and I both know I did not mean any harm. Melvinder was there. Then, when we came to the second floor, I waited for Ms Sunbeam, and asked her if I had said anything offensive about Perpetrator #1. She said no. I asked her to go see Perpetrator #1. We had a long tiff but Ms Sunbeam told us to rest the case.

Now, Perpetrator #2 didn't make it to class today (I wonder where she went) - and she called me using Melvinder's phone number. And because of my anger and confusion, which Melvinder specifically heard (who knows, maybe some other people have heard it too) - Perpetrator #2 harassed me and blew the entire issue out of proportion, calling me someone with a big mouth (which I know I have not !) and saying that everyone heard what I said. I couldn't take it anymore. Using the house phone, I dialled Ms Sunbeam's number. I wept while I told the whole story of the two people who harassed me.

Perpetrator #2 said I have a big mouth. Au contraire. I don't have a big mouth. I have a quick and sharp tongue. And that is my weakness.

Anyway, I told the whole story to Ms Sunbeam - including what I said in my anger. I know. The entire scene at the stairs was heated up. As much as I tried regaining my composure and telling both the perpetrators to listen to me, they both tried to cut me off. I could not help but lose my cool. But all I know is that I have talked ill of neither of them. I do not really fear tomorrow because when le Soleil rises, in her (his ?) brightness she (he ?) will put this chaos to an end.

I just want everything to be resolved amicably, like the previous video issue with Navinesh and group in front of Dr Chantheney - or else, I know what will happen because of this animosity. I did not blog about my first harassment because after resolving the issue, we became fast friends. There were no qualms about us being together and talking about intellectual stuff. But this time, it involves girls. Catty, exuberant girls. Just like me. Lord help me and forgive me for my anger ; send your Holy Spirit down to be my defence. Those who are on the side of truth, listen ! I will speak no more tomorrow but let Ms Sunbeam tell both the perpetrators everything. I am certain that this prosecution will be null and void. Here I go again.

I do not know why I am always the target for harassment. In kindergarten, I was the object of scorn for having short hair. Same went for primary school - being a girls' school, I went there. They kept on telling me that I had no place there because I was a boy. Correction : I am a girl. Well, because everyone knew me by the time I went to secondary school, I was protected for the most part, until one time where a teacher called me a witch and accused me of playing with figures (like Visiber) - I do not do that stuff. And now, in college, two events have happened. I just pray that after this, there will be no more cases of people harassing me.

Otherwise, everything was blissful. For the record, I have had birthday cake for three straight Tuesdays. Dr Chantheney sure must be enjoying herself ! *smiles* Two weeks ago it was Melvin's birthday, then last week was Nancy's, today is Jega's. I managed to take twelve pictures of the sights and stuff in today's Business Studies class (three of them involved sketches and writing on the whiteboard) and well, I will be uploading them soon enough.