And she fights for her life

This is the Hymn of the Fayth from Final Fantasy X. Only that this time, it isn't the original rendition by Nobuo Uematsu.

It's a rendition by a fan with a good voice and an even greater arranging ability.

All the reactions to this rendition were positive ones. Some even became fans. And this independent singer has plans for releasing an album in her own county.

Now, truth be told, I was touched a moment there when I heard this version of the Hymn of the Fayth. Don't turn around now and ask me why I haven't a single video or recording of my voice. It's just that now, I'm fighting for my life, fighting to let my voice be heard. With absolutely no recording tools (except for a phone with a terrible sound recorder), I enter into the battlefield, where people come out and make themselves heard. I'm the unluckiest of these people, because all I can ever present to my potential listeners is a crappy AMR file with interference.

I have long yearned to touch people's hearts. With my voice. And my strength. My dark strength. The recording just doesn't seem to help.

Will anyone find the stalwart behind all that interference ?

Will anyone pick out the weeping drummer girl in the midst of all those other heartbeats ?

Looks like everyone hears, but no one listens. Or if there are people who really listen to my voice, they just stop and stare, and that's all. Another fleeting moment in their lives, and they pass by.

Imagine how pathetic I sound when the few people who sample my AMR files ask me, "Have you ever been approached by a talent scout ?" and all I can give them is a sad, broken no. Never in my life has anyone actually come and hear the little that I have to give. My heart aches.

My soul and my emotions are as fragile as eggshells. No matter how much I try to keep my spirits high, something has to happen to shatter all the happiness I have always hoped for. I don't know if mom is in heaven. Methinks she isn't there yet. Because if she really were there, she'd lift me up and whisper in the Lord's ear so that He could lead me on that musical path, the path which I hold closest to my heart.

Maybe, unlike many other fortunate people, my dream isn't meant to be.