Where are you Christmas... ?

Today the Business class students parted ways with Dr Chantheney for the holidays.

Everything's been toned down - class hours, even the content - because Christmas is drawing near. I noticed a few people, including Nancy, who were asked whether or not they did their Christmas shopping. The feeling of Christmas is in the air for everyone else. But not me. I have this premature notion that Christmas is just gonna come and go like any other day.

Because of the deed of one certain whoreson and his wife, I don't have any Christmas celebrations.

Mom's not here anymore, and Christmas doesn't feel like Christmas anymore. The joy we all used to have while preparing for the festivities, while preparing to welcome Jesus into our hearts, is long gone. Even the Christmas tree looks so sombre, it can't cheer me up.

I looked around me in class today, and I saw smiles on the faces of most people. Only some were exasperated because of class. Otherwise, everyone was just happy. Lucky you guys. You have every reason to celebrate this Christmas. Cherish it.
As for me, I have nothing.

I don't see how I can bear a year without celebrations. I have the feeling that all this will wear me down to the core. But I guess I have to.

Today is Narin's 20th birthday, and chances are that she may not have celebrated it. I don't know for sure. Tomorrow is DK's birthday. I hope I can give him a good present : good C1 results.

On another note, I give and I don't get anything in return.

P.S. I pray that 2009 won't be as f*ed up as 2008. Honestly.