Chris : TroisNyx*, I understand your frustration. I'd been through that. there was a period of time of about 2 years that I went through the darkest times of my life. time I wished I can forget for good. I almost took my own life for not being able to take control of my own life, direction and many things. I failed to understand many things I went through back then. I was pessimistic, more pessimistic than anyone I came across my entire life. I wasn't receptive at all. I chose to take accounting, a rather rigid and compliant sort of subject. And, I now have to commit to my decisions despite my later discovery that I didn't like it at all. But eventually, after 3 years I see the big picture. I learned an extra skill that is highly demanded for. And, I retained my gifts. I am born creative and imaginative, and I didn't lose my passion for idealism, creations, ideas, innovations, designs, brands and advertising, arts, music, movie productions, and many more. Even though I don't have the technical know-how for these areas, I didn't lose anything. I have the best of both worlds - the practicality of accounting and the creativity required of artistic people. Regardless of how good I am actually in these areas, I am glad I didn't let go what I did now despite the hardship, and I didn't let go my passion to understand why and how despite people telling me to just accept what facts are and just remember them. I didn't change. I am still the boy who insisted to be honest with people around my life even though I understood how tough reality is.
Perhaps I got too far away the topic we were on. I hope you understand what I mean. Never let go of your dreams. If you have what it takes, you can make things happen the way you want to. Hold on firmly to your beliefs and principles. Trust me, you will be glad you listened to your parents' advice and yet still keep in perspective what you believe in, and what you are made of. Music is in your blood, it will always be there no matter where you are, no matter how long you didn't engage completely on it. A genius knows how to combine what he or she learns from a different discipline into what he or she genuinely believes in and make a difference. Perhaps you are meant to be a talented musician cum lawyer? Perhaps you are meant to tell stories of crime and violence and law with music? Perhaps you can combine the best of both music and law and made a tremendous difference to life. Perhaps you will be the leader of tomorrow on a new age of music by combining the 2 disciplines and add in more perspectives?
Give yourself a chance to explore what others believe as impossible. Prove to them that you are made of diamonds when they see that you are only made of jade. The road ahead is definitely going to be tougher than now. embrace the difficulties and set an optimistic mindset. I believe that you can make it. Why don't you believe in yourself? Enough said. I slept 2 hours only last night and I just came back from a date with my ex-schoolmates. I'm on holiday now, but I am more than occupied and on a learning mindset than near examinations. Why? Think about it. Good night. And good luck TroisNyx*, Malaysia's leading musician in the future. =)
Thank you Chris. Soon. I make that vow. Soon. I will get there someday.
I had to take the entire comment on the YouthSays discussion board. In times like these, I need that boost to get me going. In times when only a few people see the underlying genius behind a song and begin a pact with me, in times when I feel like crying for about an hour, that is when God sends such angels to give me strength. These are the angels who actually save me from deathly disastrous worry and bring me back to my love for music. Composing to me is like Mozart's "Eine Kleine Nachtmuzik" - it stays in my head forever, and whenever I recall the title of the song, the entire song plays in my mind (despite the fact that no one has played it before).
Soon, Malaysia. The true class act will become ratio decidendi and the rest of it will be obiter dicta.
And by the way, happy birthday, Ma. God bless you and keep you well. :-)
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